i'll reveal .

Posted By Haysia Z on Jan 21, 2010 at 7:22PM

heyo !

know what ?

i'm really lazy , to get involved in people's life now .

all i get in return are heart aches .

so i see no point in either being nice or otherwise ..

i'll just mind my own business . even in difficult times , i'll just bear it all alone .

i won't bother others . in that way , mouths willl not make up stories . nobody will get hurt .

not that i'm running away , just trying to avoid unnecessary problems .

got enough on my mind already .

now , i'll try to cherish the times spent with my loved ones .

you won't know when they'll go away .

i don't wanna regret either .

to you , i don't know why . but i seem to have lost you already .

i missed you badly i gotta say .

even when you're near , i feel that you're really far . out of my reach .

my heart really hurts . i swear it is .

it seems like she's much more important .

you heeded every word she says .

when in fact i'm the one whose supposed to be given that authority .

i'm just real tired .

i'm on the verge of giving up , yet i'm trying my best to hold on .

coz i won't stop fighting with a person like her .

she don't deserve to win .

i will prove that i'm no small kid .

that i'm not weak ; even when the pain really kills .

even if you were to go , let it end perfectly .

don't let tears be the witness of it .

i wish you could know all this .

i wish you could hear my cries .

i wish it was perfect .

but , it already happened .

i couldn't do anything bout it .

i just hope you realized what is happening .

and i'm sorry , if another problem crops , let me tell you ,

I WILL NOT KEEP QUIET ANYMORE .

i've had enough . she must accept the fact .

i won't give in no more .

i'm loving you , felix .

 

 

sleepless night

Posted By Haysia Z on Jan 19, 2010 at 4:41AM

hey peeps . i guess my blog's been abandoned for a while huh ?

hahah , i've been busy lately . or maybe i was just being lazy ,

to think of what to blog about .

hmm , where do i start ? there's just too much on my mind right now .

okay , basically the past few days were hectic . been hardly at home . i don't think i'll elaborate more .

and it's been days since i met him . i think i've almost went bonkers .

hmm . and oh ya ! I LOVE SATRIO PERKOSO ! haha .

kay , as you can see , i am being sooooo lame . i can't think right now . i just don't know what to type .

alright , i'll better stop here before i start more crapping .

k bye , will update when i feel like it . sorry .. hee ((:

TE AMO , FELIX RAHIM . ALWAYS ((:

 

holding on .

Posted By Haysia Z on Jan 8, 2010 at 7:12PM

i've lost my faith .

i can say i'm almost dead . but the last breath still lingers .

i'm trying to hold on ;

for everyone's sake . but does anyone know , how i feel deep down ? no . coz i don't show and i don't wish to show .

i don't need to make people worried . let me just swallow it all .

my dear , i wish i could let go . however , the attraction's getting stronger each time i tried to do so .

was i being naive ? i don't know . even if i was , it's all for you .

i don't wish to be nasty . maybe you didn't want me to either .

and if you're still continuing , hoping that i wouldn't know ,

i guess you'd better pray for the best .

i'm still holding on to your words .

it's strongly etched in my heart , every now and then .

i wish i wasn't addicted . for you , who was like poison ,

going down to my system ;

killing my defenses with time .

makes me think , maybe my death is your mission .

if only ;

i wasn't addicted .

i'm sorry , this is making me stronger .

Posted By Haysia Z on Dec 27, 2009 at 2:00PM

to my dearest , i thank you so much for the chalet experience .

the days spent with your family was superb that i felt i was one of you people .

even though i found out something that i shouldn't which i think you didn't want it to either ;

i can only pray it's not gonna happen again . i can be patient but don't regret if i can't take it anymore .

don't say i didn't warn alright ?

i don't wanna talk bout this , it's making me flare up .

i guess till here then . will update soon enough .

i can forgive , but don't forget i have feelings too . i'll always love you .

i'll make sure i'll not give you up to others . not that easy , i have to say .

so , good luck in trying to that someone .

 

introduction .

Posted By Haysia Z on Dec 16, 2009 at 2:09AM

hey peeps ! something happened today ! i met my dada's family ! OMG !

i can't believe it ! his parents are really nice and they treated me to dinner .

later we went to supermarket coz his mum wanted to buy some household stuffs . know what ? i feel so attached to them .

i feel that i have a responsibility now .

his nieces and nephews already called me their aunt . how sweet !

btw , i can't wait for their chalet on 21st . its held for a week . im invited ! wow ! hehe !

I AM SOOOOOO HAPPY !

i love him soooooooo much ! i wanna get married and have kids with him ! omg , am i thinking too far ?

hah , people in love .....

well , thats all for today . see ya !